Lurkers Where Art Thou?

Over the past couple of weeks I have had several people randomly refer to things in my life that I have no idea how they would know that about me. When I question it they remind me that they either read my blog or are friends with me on Facebook. I realize when I publish things online that anyone can read them, but in my head, though I can see stats on my blog and though Facebook tells me the number of people I'm friends with, I tend to only think those reading are those with whom I interact.

I have lots of friends on Facebook that never make it into my news feed (though I have it set to show all my friends). They never comment on anything I post either, so I assume they don't really use their account (and every few months I go through my friend's list and "house clean" their names right off of there!). I tend to think Facebook needs to be a two-way relationship. It doesn't seem fair that I give people tons of stuff to read in their news feeds and then they give me nothing (and sometimes it's really boring).

With the blog, it's open to anyone. I don't really know who reads it so this one tends to throw me off more when people talk about it. In my head more people I don't know read it than people I do know (which I don't actually think is true, but that's what my head thinks). I want to feel like all of you exist, but if you never tell me you do (through a comment or whatever) I think you don't. So you should tell me you read my blog (not in person as an aside when you bring up stuff in my life that I have no idea how you know, that just creeps me out. :) ). Leave a comment every once in a while so I know you're there, okay?? Please?



And Ps - it doesn't actually creep me out when you bring up my blog, I think it's funny. And awkward. Because then I start  going through my head wondering if I've said anything embarrassing or offensive that will be brought up in your next sentence. It's kind of torture for me, but if that's fun for you, whatev's.